Fifth day of Nativity, and I'm tired.

 Dear Reader,

We celebrate Yule and Nativity at the same time. It just makes sense with the schedule factor. I was making presents up until the night of Nativity Eve. I still have a few to finish to mail out. Nativity Eve started out ok and then got a bit wonky but turned out alright in the end. Nativity day started out ok and then stopped just short of a disaster at my in-law's house. This business of things starting ok and then going sideways has been the theme for the last several days. It is exhausting.

I want to go take a nap but it's 4 pm and that's not really possible if I am going to get dinner done in time. I am no where near caught up with my paperwork that got messed up over the last three weeks. I did finish my tapestry but now I don't have an embroidery project at the moment to do. It's got me off kilter a bit. 

I spent the morning knitting the back of a baby sweater for my niece's baby who is due in the spring. I spent all of my daylight hours (with the exception of lunch and the times I had to do things with the kids) yesterday working on my monstrosity of a shawl/blanket. This thing is enormous and I hardly made a dent in the ball of yarn that I'm working from. It's the final triangle of the pattern and it requires 4 balls of yarn to make it. I'm probably half way through the second ball of yarn for that triangle. It was my other mad pandemic project. When I get it done I will post a picture of it.

My anxiety has been high because of drama with the extended family. I have been trying to get myself back into the habit of formal prayer sessions through out the day but the best I can manage is the morning offerings and maybe a 'Hail Marya' in the evening because I've been so busy. I thought that the time of Nativity was supposed to be a time of rest and celebration. It's turning into a time of work and exhaustion. I hope that isn't going to be the tone of the next year. 2020 was bad enough in those terms.