Ah gods, has it really been that long?

Dear Reader,

I apologize that I dropped off the internet for over a month. I was severely depressed and dealing with a very challenging medication change. The side effects were the hardest part. Aside from the utter exhaustion that had me sleeping through the night and all day, I had a lot of difficulty focusing. The most exasperating bit about this new medication on the witchy front is the fact that it has filled my head with utter silence. I am head-blind and having difficulty connecting with the gods. 

As such, I have resorted to alternate means (which I will describe) and I'm trying to get a feel for using these means more often. They say that once you learn something, it is like riding a bicycle. They are wrong because you forget details and snippets of how it works depending on the length of time since you've done the thing. Astral temples, liminal communication where your mind meets the general psychic space of the area, and such are not easy exercises. It is, however, very effective once you get the hang of it and working while in trance states. 

In the grips of depression, I was struck with powerful waves ennui and I contemplated shutting down all my blogs. I didn't do it because I didn't have enough proverbial spoons to do so. I am not up to my full spoon count for a given day. I'm pretty sure that I am going to have days that a ten minute writing session is going to be too much. But this is the beginning, which is always hard. I anticipate doing my writing and getting some texts out for you all to read.

As I glanced at my multivolume Book of Shadows, I realized that I had enough research in there to write several serious papers about occult topics. As such, I am going to and try to organize and filter everything so that it makes sense. I had been contemplating going back to school for my master's degree in divinity, but I don't think I have the energy to be that ambitious. So, I'm just going to crank out papers based on my research and peddle them to public resources where they can get peer review and basically do the work for a master's thesis on my own time. I was considering Cherry Hill seminary but the limitations of doing the work there is things like timing and technological resources.